Memory..no blaming anymore..look forward

sigh....It has been six weeks since I arrived KL and what I can say is I don't really like the life in big city. People are so materialistic and complicated. I really can't imagine how the life in singapore and Japan is. I think it would be worse.

I went to see my friend's blog just now and there are a lot of pictures that are very memorable. I prefer the life in secondary school since they were so many memory..playing with friends, making fun, performing on the stage, leading a team or group,etc..The life seemed so fantastic but why I just kept blaming..there was totally no pressure but why I just kept putting pressure on myself..The life here is entirely different and sometimes I would get exhausted since I felt I know nothing compared to others..I didnt give myself too much pressure..I just felt there are still many things have to be learnt...I have to cherish every minutes...I shouldn't have given too much excuses to myself..anyway...It has already passed and I will just look forward to brighten up my future.

Recently,I have bought a lot of self-help books to upgrade myself.It includes , ,<10>,,<> and ...These books are so expensive but it really helps.So, if you are interested in anyone of these books...you can come to borrow with me..

I have been advised to change my attitude but I didnt keep it in my mind. Recently, somethings happenend and I unconditionally recall this advice. I found that I am so emotional or easily influenced. I couldn't concentrate on my study in the last 3 weeks just because of a non-important matter, which I can't mention here. Mr.NG is right. He told me I could be better if I change my attitude...now..I will always keep this advice in my mind...and I also know that attitude is everythings..come one...let's work hard(yourshimi hapsida)..

It was the first unforgettable event I had experienced after coming to KL

(wondering)Am I supposed to blame on the national services?or blame on the restaurant in KL?or blame on my immune system?It had been a hard time since I was in national services because I had experienced somethings special in my life.I went to see gastroenterologist on monday and haplessly I was told that I am being infected by helicobacter pylori-It was a kind of bacteria found in stomach and intestine.Besides,I was also told that my intestine has been inflamed.It's suck!!!Why do I get such infection?I think it was probably due to the food in national services.The food and the environment are so damn dirty.The gastroenterologist,whose name is Datuk(Dr.)F.K. Chan,explained that this kind of bacteria can be transmitted through environment as well as saliva. So,whoever has read this article,remind me not to share food and drink with you or you will be infected.Don't worry.It's no big deal.I am talking medicine.

My stomach and intestine had been feeling uncomfortable since I was in national service.What I can describle is that I felt a lot of winds in my stomach and occasionally it would bloat.Besides,I perceived there was blood in my stools and I also found that the stools were bizarre or unusual.I was so worry that I immediately went to sunway medical centre to consult a general doctor.However,the medicine didn't help a lot so I decided to tell my parents and they brought me go to see gastroenterologist.The process of checking was so suffering.Firstly,I was given a jar of laxative to drink so as to ease the scope.After half an hour,diarrhoea began and I had been going to washroom for 5 times.Thereupon,I was called to take off my pant as well as underwear and lied on a moving-bed to wait for next instruction.Boringly,I had been waiting for 20 minutes.Suddenly,two nurses came in and pushed me to the operation room.Thereat,again,I had waited for 15mintues when the doctor arrived.Initially,he meticuluosly helped me to scan the gall and liver followed by drawing out some of my blood to be examined.After that,I was anaesthetised so surely that I didn't know what happened next.After one hour,I was woken up but I still felt dizzy all the way to my brother's house.What surprsied me the most was that I had to pay RM1429.It was so expensive but it's worth since I feel better after I have taken medicine for 4 days.So,whoever has met this situation,please go to consult a specialist as soon as possible or it will be more and more serious.

About her-Langadon oku dika,Muhang oku dika(duzun)/ ami tomakey bhalobasni(bangladesh)

It has been 5 months since graduation and I have never met her before since 11 of november last year.I still remember it was 24 of november,she told me that she has fallen in love to somebody,which actually I have known it before she told me but I pretend knowing nothing.I was very upset and down until I didnt enjoy both of my graduation trip.Honestly,I knew that she wont be falling in love to me since the day we knew each other.I just kept lying myself everyday. to be continue..

Im not continuing this article anymore because
I dont want to recall it anymore..it seems that im so childish

New life

It has already passed 5 months since graduation and there were a lot of events happenend.The life after graduation was totally different from the secondary school life.After I hv gotten my UEC results,which i'm not very satisfied,I began to search and apply the university that I'm interested of--monash university and nanyang technological university(ntu).I applied business course for both universities but my wish was to enrol ntu since it has a higher ranking.It is also because studying in ntu is cheaper than in monash university.However,the opportunity enrolling to ntu was so small since it is very competitive.So,I decided to move my interest towards monash university which my UEC result was just enough for m e to enrol.Challengingly,my english grade in UEC was so bad that they didnt allow me to enroll the first year of the business and commerce course.In november,just after the graduation trip,I had a hard time since the pathway to enrol monash university was to score band 6.5 in IELTS but it didnt mean i couldnt enrol the university if i failed to score it.There was still another pathway if i couldn't score it,that was to study the ELBP course.The university has ruled that whoever wished to study ELBP course had to sit for the IELTS test first.So,I decided to sit for the IELTS test on 9 and 10 of january but the results came out badly that I only scored band 6.So,I have no choice but to take the ELBP course so as to enrol the university.Now,I'm in kl and ready for the course which will be begun on 16 of march.Hopefully,I can do well in this ELBP course and directly enrol to the first year of business and commerce course.