Incorrigible

I have never been so down after I have come to KL. Is that the only thing I care of?I though I have already let go of it, but after I found the news it really strikes me so badly. Why do i care so much?It has been a year!!why couldn't i manage to get rid of my mind? Soliloquizing brings to an incorrigible way. I don't want to express this kind of childish feelings to others anymore. I would rather look for hole to crawl into. I really can't continue to write down this kind of feelings.I just want to stop, stop everything that have recently buried me under the ground. I'm currently being suffocated all the times once I think of it. I just want to stop writing....